Yeah, I agree it's hard, I struggled as well, there are definitely lots of sacrifices, but strangely at the end it was more satisfying. Maybe after seeing some people that I know passed away so early, I realized afterall we live only once, time is not going to wait for us, we don't want to wake up one day, asking if only I should have done that.

And I wonder if there's some truth to the chain mail I received from a friend few days ago:
"Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have , or sleep all you want." ":)

I used to ask the same questions my self a few years ago, till I decide that hey...wat the heck...I should sometimes fullfil what I want instead of what I need.

Today I find myself wondering... is this it?...
I feel incredibly stalled in life right now. Mediocre living, decent boyfriend, acceptable job. But in my mind, I see in perfect colors albeit rose-tinted what I could have.

I am the sheep gazing at greener pastures, I tell myself, but what if I am the domesticated animal afraid of jumping the fence for fear of losing the comfort of daily food and shelter?